Well my friends, after 149 days of non-stop writing, I took a break. Or, perhaps I was given a break, a birthday break. I took a few days off to go away and have a holiday on the Oregon Coast. It was a fabulous and magical time. I got to break out of many of my daily routines and all the projects I am working on. We spent a lot of time in the woods hiking. The air was clean. The woods were quiet and exquisitely beautiful. Together we renewed ourselves on a break for the first time in a long time.
And I almost didn’t make it. Insomnia almost got in my way. The night before we were supposed to leave, I was up for several hours in the middle of the night. We seriously considered not going. I spent a couple of hours in the morning in serious T.V. therapy. LOL. When we got to the coast, I was so glad that I had found the energy to get there. Walking on the beach was so much more therapeutic than sitting around at home feeling sorry for myself.
And then there were two more consecutive nights of interrupted sleep at our coast hotel. Again, we considered going home. But in the end, we decided to stay an extra night. And we were so glad we did. We got to have another magical exploration of the Oregon woods and another day of beauty and magic. I came home feeling refreshed and re-energized.
I had the courage to move beyond what at times can be the debilitating discomfort that insomnia can leave in its wake. (no pun intended)
Courage: the mental or moral strength to venture, persevere, and withstand danger, fear, or difficulty.
I also probably have enough reserves in my energy bank that I could push myself forward.
Here is what I wrote in my journal on my last night of holiday:
Courage. It took Courage to pack up my bags and my Insomnia and go on a trip. Insomnia tried to keep me home. But I gave myself space to recover from my late night date with the Great Awakener. We got to the Coast. We got to the beach. And Magic followed us everywhere we went. Nothing stopped Magic. Courage kept saying 'Yes" and Magic followed. Insomnia came along and followed me into the next night, and the one after that. And I was faced again with a choice to be Courageous or yield to the devilish mischief of Insomnia. But Courage, my Heart, won and all went well a we flowed with the energy of the day together. Insomnia and Restful Being became friends with both of us. By being Courageous, Joy found its way into our hearts. True happiness as I have not seen followed me forward. In the end, a double rainbow appeared. It was as though the world, the Oracle, the Guides, the Angels, all smiled brightly and loudly said "YES!"
My friends, if you have insomnia, I know the great discomfort it leaves one with. It has taken me many years to get to the place of being able to move forward in the face of exhaustion. I know your pain. Don’t give up. There can be a better tomorrow.
I send you Love.